wisecrack

Now, we head towards the battlefield!
Believe, and our blades will not break!
Believe, and our hearts will not bend!
Though the roads we take may be different,
Our iron hearts will beat as one.
Swear, that even if the earth is torn asunder,
We will live and return here once again!
-13th Protection Squad-

A new year… Most of the people I knew probably think that this is a good chance for a new beginning, to start fresh, a new life. Gone are the days of bickering with one another, trying to ridicule whom you could and get even with those who mocked you. Less time to join in the merrymaking with friends whom you’ve shared a great deal of your life, be it in high school days or the college years. Eventually there will come a time when the path we are walking on takes a different turn separating us from those we consider as allies. Inevitable but it doesn’t mean the camaraderie has to end. This goes to those who are on a different path.

To those who has found happiness in their life,
Congrats! Finally, after all those years of being rejected has paid off. Bad news is, it isn’t going to last so be sure to give us a call and we’ll always have a drink ready for you.

To those who vanished like a ghost,
Whatever you’re doing right now just make sure you leave us out of it, got it? But if ever you change your mind and decide to involve us, we’ll always be here to back you up.

To those who has found a new set of friends,
Good luck! Chances of them leaving you hanging are still high. Just be considerate in choosing your new found friends.

To those who have been hurt,
Although drinking might drown those sorrows away, doing it everyday is an over kill. Just think that you don’t want to look like that when the right one comes along.

To those who said their ok but not,
You’re only fooling yourself, seriously. Get a grip, for Pete’s sake. He’s just one guy. It’s not the end yet.

To those who are already Dads and Moms,
Be patient… you do realize that most of their aunts and uncles are currently unemployed. Congrats!

To those who are still a bum,
Kudos! Being a Bum rocks!!!

To those who are in the states,
Hey!!! We’re still waiting for any parcel you’ll be sending us. In case you’ve forgotten the sizes, message me and I’ll send it to you in no time. Stay safe out there and take care…

To those who are no longer earthbound,
If ever you find a way of reading this, do know that you’ll always be remembered.

To those who are going to tie it up,
Congrats! Too bad that “Bro’s before Hoe’s’ are already over. But the deal is still in effect. Your secret is still safe with us.

To those who are still studying,
It’s only a matter of time now before you become a bum so enjoy your remaining days in school.

To those who are getting serious with their life,
Take a breather once in a while. Enjoy, get drunk, and be merry.

To those who have problems,
We’re still offering a 200 hours “crisis intervention program” consisting of 12 hours self reflection, 38 bathroom hours, 100 hours of being merry, and 50 hours of your chosen way to get your anger out. Be advice that in the 100 hours of being merry, all drinks are not inclusive.

Note: If you don’t find yourself on the list above just give a message and I’ll be sure to make an update right away. Any form of addition be it an idea or a new criteria will be appreciated. Thank you.
p.s. Most of what is written above is not to be taken seriously. Although some of them maybe factual, they still are in a form of a joke. Any similarities to persons living or dead is just a mere coincidence and not done intentionally.

secret

teach me why...
why do i become light-headed everytime i see you?
when you smile at me...
i become happy and feels like i'm gonna run away.

one more try...
but for many times, i've been searching for you.
trying not to meet your eyes...
i'm staring at your side today, again.

feelings that cannot be expressed well...
so i change it to a whisper.
the sunset is a lil' bit sad...
maybe it's a beginning of something.

want to be close to you...
a lil' bit, step by step, ayt?
like the sun following behind...
my feelings cannot be erased.

if someday you are hurt...
let it fall, till there's no more cry.
i want to tell you...
just a phrase, "it's gonna be okay."

"precious things cannot be seen."
but the love is freer than this blowing wind.
i want to watch and protect you.
i want to support you.
now, it's still a secret.
even though it's far, like the moon...
i want to shine upon you.

let fall

Pardon me if I think like this,
I did not want you to know.
That I was enduring a misery,
When your’ no longer free anymore.

Like a drizzle but quietly it pours,
Giving a nostalgic feeling to everything it sets upon.
Piling up in my heart memories,
Of a forgotten scent, a forgotten heart beat.

Fleeting emotion to which I wish it pass,
Will it do nothing but linger, or
Would you notice it?
Even I do not intend to say anything.

How long will I keep thinking of you?
When every sigh I make fogs up,
The windows glass with pictures of you.

Now, even a burning candle cannot,
Melt away the feelings I have.
But if it were to rain an everlasting lies,
Somehow I could have kept it to myself.

Hold me tight, strong enough to break me.
Coz if ever we meet in a biting cold storm,
I will no longer feel frozen.
I miss you every time I think of you.

Pardon me if I think like this,
I did not want to know.
That I would stay in this misery,
If I were to give up and fight no more.

vrije

"Believe in thine own self, and serve no other, for others know nothing of what is best for thee. Yet do not shut
out opposing philosophies, for at times their teachings may be clearer than thine own."

"Subjugate thy self not to God nor man, for subjugation knows no honor. Why should the Father wish His children to kneel in fear before him? Better to die free than to live as sheep."

"Do what you will with thy life. Give freely, love freely and expect nothing. In this shall you find true happiness,
and there will be no reason for disappointment."

"Do unto others as you wish to do unto them. For this is thy right as a being of free will. Thou may treat thy
neighbor good or ill, as per thy will. But remember this: He also is free to respond according to his will; and it would do thee well to temper thine action with judgment."

"Thou shalt not kill out of anger, lust or evil. Yet to protect that which is important; self, family, liberty. Kill
swiftly and without mercy. If thou art not willing to do this, you shall lose all that matters to thee."

"Thou art stronger than you can ever know, search for the strength that wells within. It is there. It is waiting.
And somewhere out there, someone needs you more than you can ever imagine."

"If you have not known hate, pain, greed and cowardice then thou hast not known love, pleasure, generosity and
courage, for they are all degrees of the same ideal. Accept both the good and the bad within thee, for there is no
separating the two. Without one, the other has no meaning."

"If thou findest an inequity, you must correct it. If thou art witnesses to injustice, you must not stand idle. If
you come upon pain, then give relief. For if the lot of Man is to improve, the seer must be the doer."

"If thou followest the philosophy of others and add nothing of thine own, then thou art no more than a beast of the field and have wasted thy soul."

"Listen to the opinions of others and weigh their merits, for others may see options you have not. Yet follow thine own heart for the final decision. If thou art not willing to do this, then take heed: Thou hast delivered thy
destiny into the hands of strangers."

"Faith is the greatest force within this universe. With it, you may do all that is possible, and even that which is
not. Yet you must channel this energy within thine own soul: keep faith in thy hopes, faith in thy dreams, faith in
thyself."

"Within thee lies the power of the gods. To gain it, strive for understanding: of the firmament, of thine earth, of
others, and most importantly, of thyself."

"Seek the philosophy within thy soul, for others cannot reveal it nor dictate it to thee. Neither god nor man may
lead thee to thyself, for only the individual soul knows its own path."

"No one may control thee or manipulate thee unless you allow it to be. Thee and thee alone art thy destiny’s master."

"Thy path in life must be thine own, let not others choose it for thee. If you wish a chance at greatness, follow
thine own path. If it should lead to misery, so be it. At least is it a misery of thine own choosing. And remember,
you may always try again."

"Friends are precious; keep them near. But thy family is sacred. One may treat them ill, slander them and do them evil. Yet when thy need is greatest, they shall always be with thee."

"Error and forgiveness are the traits of humanity, fear and condemnation the traits of gods. Strive to be human;
strive not to be gods."

"All has been brought to bear against thee. Thine instincts were bred into thee; thy laws created for they could not be kept. Question all, for this is the path to Oneness. Heed not the beliefs, laws and actions of others unless they suit thee. And be prepared to die for this."

tribute

Somebody once asked me, “Why do you do that?” pertaining to the curiosity of how I cast away the first shot into an open land in a drinking session. Some say its a toast to the spirits floating around above us, others say that it would lessen the alcohol content of whatever it is that you are drinking and there are those who just think that it was cool, but for as long as I remember people have been doing it for a long time, in order to give honor to their fallen comrades. During the past, before warriors go into the battlefield, there has always been a festivity in which they can drink to their hearts content before the break of dawn. It serves as a last supper for those who will not survive the coming battle. As for me, I didn’t know when I started it. A force of habit as you may say but during these times it has become more meaningful since that incident happened. The death of someone close to you, may it be your family or your friends. It is inevitable to all living things. One way or another we all have to leave this earthbound place. Everyone has their own time when to go away. It just didn’t sink in to us that you were planning it the whole time. It was not in you to do those kinds of things. It was not in anyone of us. We were a group of individuals who were always having a laugh no matter what. You may say that we are idiots to the core, but we were real. We never forget who we are just in order to blend in. Never did we try anything so stupid as to hurt others even ourselves just to stand out. A brotherhood of fools we are but it was us. When you left, it hit us really bad. Although no one admitted it and was just being silent about it but you’ll get the idea that everyone took it pretty hard. We kind of went on our own way after that and before we even realized it a year has already gone by. You know the rest. Those shots will serve as a tribute to the memory of a fallen brother. If by any way you can read this, all we can say is “what the hell? We always had your back, damn it!!!” even though that was a fight you don’t want us involved in, and wherever you are may you rest in peace, shit head…

prologue

In our lives the possibility of having to make a choice is always present. Even though sometimes we are not aware of these choices, certainly we are making one without even realizing the consequences of this action. And hence the saying “life is full of infinite possibilities”, depends on the choices we are making today. Some of us think thoroughly of what to choose, they try to weigh on which will bring the most benefit to them. While others are just bluntly making choices on the basis of one what feels. It is in this circumstance that the foolishness of humanity begins to surface. This is not to say that those people who made their decision base on feelings are a fool. It’s just the tendency of us becoming a fool is elevated. We fail to realize that what should have been decided was for the common good. A universal fact, to which it would benefit most people are what is acceptable. It is because that is what has been decided by society to be morally and politically the right thing to do. And In order for us not to make a mistake, it is inevitable that we have to do what they think to be is right. However, it is not always like that. Mistakes are the things that make us humans. We are not a perfect being who are exempted from making one. There are times when we can justify our actions allowing us to be excuse from committing this error. This is where the dilemma begins. If we can justify our actions to be is right, then does that mean that what the society consider to be the right one, will be nullified. If an individual has their own sense of self-righteousness then it would bring conflict to two opposing views. Society will no longer be the basis of what is right and what is wrong. Here’s a situation from the movie “swordfish”. If you can have the cure for any diseases that could save millions of people but in order to get it you have to kill a single innocent child. What would you do? Society will tell you to kill the child. It’s for the greater good. But if you’re an individual who values the sanctity of human life let alone an innocent child, you wouldn’t go for the kill. You’ll probably think of ideas in order for you not to make that choice. Of course no one can say what is the right thing to do, even morality is out of the question here. It will rely on what one feels and thinks in the given situation. So it will come down to this. There is no absolute right or wrong. What makes us say which is which depends on the things we believe in and how are our perspective allow us to accept it. Our own, not what other tells it to be because it’s written in some form of greatness or holiness. Following the things we believe in doesn’t make us the fool. Those who are foolish are the ones who depend on others to make their decisions for them.

drifter

Lost and continuously wandering into a sea of nothingness. Silent, unable to sense anything in this place that I’ve been stick up for so long. Darkness is the only thing you can see. Even if you shut your eyes, you would not be able to tell the difference. The quietness becomes unwavering to the point of driving an individual mad, and yet I feel so calm. There is something in this pitch black world that soothes my weariness. It does not frighten me in any kind of way. No goose bumps, no shivering, no fast heart beats, and not even a drop of sweat. Everything is peaceful. As far as I could remember, I was never afraid of the dark. Even as a kid I felt at home with it. Sometimes, this feeling of belongingness is associated with the feeling of loneliness. It is a common misunderstanding of those people who fears the dark, those people who are afraid to be alone and stand up for themselves. If I were given the chance to reason it out with them, I could convince them to change things as they see it but I would not. I believe that we are all entitled to choose what to think and what to feel. I will not force to anyone my kind of thinking, for these are only thoughts. It has no basis in the real world. It was my own and mine alone if possible. I would not want to burden anyone with these kinds of things. Then again what is to be real? Is it something that we could see, hear, and feel? Then how can we tell if our senses are lying to us. There are so many questions that need not to be answered. That is what being lost is all about. It is true that you do not have any direction in which way you should go but the good thing is you see things in different kind of perspective. How open minded can you get depends on how broad you horizon is. There is no limit to it. As long as you could imagine it, who knows, maybe what you believe in is the one thing to be true. What matter is for you to have a firm belief in something or someone. It is more than enough to keep you drifting and just go on with your life.